February 14, 2012

Let Me Go

I heard a doctor screech when they first looked at me and one of the nurses fainted.

Do I look that dreadful?

A doctor is trying to clear my eyes. There are bite wounds inside my eyes. I have plasters on all limbs. My cheeks are swollen and there are injuries all over my face. Clearing my wounds must have been a daunting task.

I like the nurses here. They are kind. The older ones say that they have never seen a case like mine before.

Everybody is trying desperately to save me. There are machines all over me. There is a team of doctors and nurses working round the clock just for me.
And then there are some who just want to take my photos!

I have survived, but I can’t be saved.
After all, I am all but, 2 years old.

My mother always thought I was pretty, even when I wasn’t born. Oh! Mothers, silly! I don’t know her name, but the little I saw of her, I can say, my mother was pretty. Definitely emaciated, but she had dignity. It was her dignity for which she fought and decided not to abort me.

I know scientists won’t believe me, but I could hear and feel in my mother’s womb. I could hear the screams, sense the fear and feel the blows. But I could never fathom why she was blamed for my existence. Even before I was born, I had my haters. My mother bore the trauma for 2 years and it’s only when she was unconsciousness that they could take me away from her.

I know the bites in my eyes are not from an insect. But I would like believe it was an insect, or many.

I am not scared. I don’t feel the pain anymore.

The pain was over when they separated me from my mother. The pain was over when they hit me, ignored my cries and broke my bones. The pain was over when they dumped me in trash to be eaten alive by insects.

The pain is long gone. These are just the scars.

I heard someone say that everyone comes to this world for a purpose. They wondered why I came. And why did I survive? May be I survived this long just for a simple message.

My story is told. My pain is felt. I think now, my message is delivered.

They have named me. But it’s pointless to tell you. You won’t remember.

You have forgotten the basic truths of life. I am the creator. I am the best friend and the most loyal fan. I am the embodiment of love, dignity and poise. I am the woman.

And you are not ready for me.

Let me go.

* Inspired from a piece from Purba Ray and instigated from the recent events of the "battered baby" case. I don't wish to name her. You won't remember.

Photo Courtesy- HD Wallpapers app for iPhone


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  2. So much pain, so unloved, for no fault of hers.
    Even her pictures make me flinch.

    Disturbing for us but stark reality for many.

  3. Dark

    ..... but cannot deny the reality which society bloom in

  4. i had goosebumps reading your post ...u have got inside the poor mite's hide ..so difficult & painful it must have been.

  5. I only read this post because I had read about that baby in the news paper and this post moved me..
    You have written it beautifully.. intriguing!!

  6. Really nice piece of writing..I must say it touchs to my soul..Carry On

  7. Dark words for the cruel side of the society composed in a beautiful manner...

  8. Well, the dark side of the society. It is a moving post. We won't remember the pain, not even the name but I wish we move and be better human beings...


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